Reflects

I woke up with a headache again and now I'm staring into space. I do it a lot, I try to wake up some of the 95% of my brain that intellectuals claim humans don't use and try to look into my head and see what's causing it. When I do,however, it leads to me reflecting on my entire life, from the last plantain I fried to the abundance that will be in my Will as my as a percentage of my legacy.
"The best trait you can have as an individual is patience- you can conquer the world with it" my granddad told me in a dream- yes,I see dead people- in my dreams and yes they speak to me. Not the way you see in movies and then they become a hero- unfortunately the subconscious of my unconscious does not supersede the thoughts and dreams theory. I reflect on how my life could be better, I love my parents but they piss me the hell off!! They fight and then they scream and then they fight some more- I learnt to block them out of my mind when I was 15. They fight but its not my fight so I'm not getting involved. They are adults and I'm a different entity even though we share the same last name.
I reflect on a big set back at Uni...I should've bEen depressed and discouraged but I was not. Infact I don't think it bothered me at all. Not because I didn't care but because I see where I'm going more clearly than where I'm at. I remember my mum shouting "why does nothing ever bother you, everything is a joke to you" back then it was terrible thing but I think she appreciates that about me now cos then I can be her rock...
I reflect on how its all on me, I could decide to not have a plan, but if you have no plan, you plan to fail..

*...The headache subsides....*

I reflect on relationships- my friends, I love my friends. If there was a way I could put into words how much I appreciate them..it wouldn't be enough- it wouldn't do it justice. Lovers....

*...The headache resumes...*

I should probably get one but can I? I mean not everyone is supposed to be committed to another being body soul and mind..or are they? Well I'm not one to follow trends and fold under pressure....
I'm pretty sure I can take anything life throws at me

*looks at the time* its 7.53pm, mum should be home any minute now

I will be back with this later,I've just heard my mums car pull in

*gun shot*

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