"you should think about losing some weight" is all I hear...like I'm not already aware. Everyday I wake up knowing I'm gonna hear another comment. Do they not know that I know?
"we need to deflate you" I guess people forget that they're talking to a human being with feelings that's still hurt from the last comment.
The few times I get hungry, I feel so guilty because I don't want to add to the "too much fat". Why is it that thin people who eat too much don't look like me? I don't want to be skinny but I'd like for people to look at me and not be irritated
If I didn't already do the "right" things, I'd have a little hope and when I say "right" things, I mean exercising and junk-free food. I don't feel heavy, I feel right- why don't I look it?
It makes me cringe and want to die that I may lose the love of my life because of it..."be careful, you don't want your weight to kill you"
"you are HUGE"
"what's bigger you or a Jeep?"
I always reply with a smile
That smile is slowly running out and dying- tomorrow, i may not be able to do it any more
With so much confident, I knew I was big boned and LOVED it, now I might be ...fat
I have a personality people love but that's if they can get past my size...
There's only so much someone with a self esteem can take - I mean I love myself but I'm starting to think maybe I'm a little delusional 'cause no one else feels the same
I couldn't be skinny even if I tried- and so I'm going to end this now
to who it may concern- I DID try"
A very important quote from that is "I feel right- why don't I look it?" I'd like to ask you, who or what defines "right", If you feel right, why are you expecting people to tell you that you look right? there is no such thing, it's either you're too chubby, or you're too skinny or you're too perfect it's not normal (yes, people do say that) if you wait for approval from people, I won't lie to you- it's very unreliable and chances are you won't get it. Even when you do, sometimes, they're being sugar mouthed- they're not being honest. You did do right thing, what changed when you were confident?
Sometimes people say stuff and they don't realise how much it hurts because they're trying to help, sometimes people just like talking without thinking and so just say the first nonsense that comes to mind, a few times- people have been drinking a lil too much HATERADE
So it's up to you how you take these things, trust me there are some cases whereby skinny people face the same problem "why are you so skinny?" "do you have AIDS?" "try not forcing yourself to throw up once in a while" EVERYBODY WILL ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY!! And as long as you're doing the necessary things to try and help yourself please master this phrase "my friend go and hug transformer"
The world is filled with opinionated illiterates, just because they're talking does not mean you have to listen to them
in loving memory of Kevin Hall, R.I.P
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