I GET IT

I get it now

I get the extravagant agony of a wait

The lack of patience, you contemplate

Whether or not you’re being paranoid

But you rehearse the words to feel the void

That is the dark hole is a blank canvas

And painted in it like the map of Kansas

Are fear and the anxiety of loneliness

I get it now

The distance between my mind and my heart

The distance between my soul and the earth

I get the agony

Oh the agony, I need the harmony

The deceptive shield, my testimony

What will happen if I leave it all behind?

Is it smart? Is it foolish? Am I being too kind?

“I shot the sheriff but I did not shoot the deputy”

Did I hurt wrong or right? Did I fail to see your beauty?

I get it now

What makes the rain bounce back

Even though the water touched the surface, crack

Is what it feels like, up my nose suffocating

Addicted to what may never cure me, fascinating

I get the reason why I hurt is you

Yet you’re my healing power, give me a tissue

To clean up my mess, the devastating journey

Of a thousand beats, missed my rhythm, Germany,

Let’s go there and fight a war

We’ll hide in that harsh zone where my coat tore

My coat...my shield, my devastating shield

Save me and take me to a mine field

Or take this scissors and make my defence yield

I’ll guide your hand so you know the right places,

The weak spots that’ll make you scar my face is

Something you’ve never seen before, so amazing

I don’t mind, for you I’ll set the world ablaze in

Times of trouble, I won’t have to be your miracle

Because I get it

What once tasted like that gorgeous maple

Now seems to be the cranberry in your milk

Never again will I get to feel your silk

Oh your amazing silk, you’re my wonder

But I’ll stop and I’ll be our asunder

I do get it

I get it now

I don’t know how